[Super Duper Fantastic] ISFP/INFP. 4w5. World Explorer. Super Hero. Rose-colored Glasses.

There are things I want to write about, which I have spoken to several people about, but I can’t get myself to blog about… Not sure how it’s going to pan out. A little embarrassed, maybe? I am so foolish when it comes to guys. -sigh-

Teeth are still loose. They’re moving. I notice little gaps where there were no gaps before, so that’s a good thing. Someone remind me to stretch and drink water when going to the gym. Went for the first time in months the other night, only to wake up with a major leg cramp in the morning. WOO!

As far as my birthday weekend, it was a good one. And now I am 26! L mentioned that this was the age that he packed up his belongings and moved from Ohio to California. Does that mean it will be a big year for me? Who knows?! The weekend was mostly relaxing with friends. Yes, friends. Over the course of the year, I’ve made some friends – wooot! Go me!

Saturday – softball game [got there so late that it was ending], potluck in a park [Hawaiian-themed, but I ended up bringing a dish that was more Polynesian. Luckily, it had a good reception.], followed by an Afghan dinner at night [YUM!]. Between the potluck and dinner, we wandered around Berkeley and the area to find some place to relax – ended up at a bowling alley.

That night was a minor turning point for the foolishness… I ended up watching a DVD in a car parked at the beach.

Sunday – ramen in the morning with the sister [Santa Ramen in San Mateo = YUM!], followed by an afternoon of catching up with friends at the local bar [I LOVE BR!]. Surprisingly, some folks from elementary school and high school showed up. A little awkward, yet somehow it worked. I guess we’ve all turned out to be decent individuals – hah!

In the evening, dinner at Roy’s [Miso Butterfish + the Molten Lava Cake for dessert = PERFECT!], and Nightmare Before Christmas in 3-D! Good times. Considering the coordination and planning for the weekend, it turned out perfectly. It was lots of fun and not the least bit stressful. PICTURES: HERE!!!

All the wires are in! There are now rubber bands doing there thing to close the gaps between my teeth. There’s a metal band running along the upper inside of my mouth, which is acting as a slight speech impediment.

I am sooo not comfortable!

It’s like waiting for the train to pass, a very long train that you can’t quite see the end of. You know it can’t go on forever because that would just be silly.

There we are, on opposite sides of the tracks.

I know I shouldn’t have asked. You, on the other hand, should have said no. We both know better. But you didn’t, so now we know what we’re missing out on…

Yesterday afternoon, I told myself that we wouldn’t see each other anytime soon. Several hours later, there we were again. Right next to each other. We’re never alone, but it doesn’t matter. Being around is enough – enough to make me hate myself for not being stronger and pushing it away.

I wrote an email this morning to which you responded. We’re going to try, both of us. That’s what I need, double the effort. My fingers are crossed for many reasons – this is just another on the pile.

My patience is being tested yet again. Why can’t it ever be easy?

This wasn’t supposed to happen, especially not with you. And of course, it is way too soon. Really bad timing. Funky situation. But it’s uncontrollable, apparently. I guess it’s something else to let pan out. Life – you suck!

Stay Out of Trouble
[Kings of Convenience]

One, two,
One, two.

I walked around for hours,
two ten pence pieces in my hand.
I was alone and freezing,
still trying hard to understand you.

I left the others knowing
I had to work this by myself.
But now the feeling’s growing,
I would be better off with their help.

So baby, what we’ve got,
has lately,
not been enough,
not been enough.

I wish I had your scarf still,
that once embraced,
and kept me warm.
I wish you could be with me,
in these last days when I am still hopelessly poor.

Stay out of trouble,
stay in touch.
Try not to think about me too much.

You want to slow it down. I do too. But how is it possible when you keep inviting me out? Are you testing my willpower, my ability to say no? Because if you are, it’s a two-person effort. I can’t do this by myself.

Pretty soon, that sidebar will have to be changed to read “26. California. Girl. Libra.” I don’t know if I will ever replace “Girl” with “Woman.” Still feel like a child most of the time.

I have been hanging out with a certain group of friends a lot lately. A bit too much. I need to take a break, but it never seems like the right time to disappear. Not necessarily disappear, but I need some time apart. It’s too much fun. Other aspects of my life have been sitting in the back burner, and that just isn’t right. I need to stop telling myself this and just get a move on.

These braces better be worth the pain! Bottom bands and wire are in. It actually didn’t hurt as badly as when they put in the spacers. I have another week and a half before the top bands and wires. Then, I will have to deal with rubber bands and all that jazz. WOOT – NOT.

A little attention can go a long way, especially for someone who craves it. I need a moment to collect myself and to breathe. I need to give my mind some time to return to sanity. I can take a hint. I won’t let it happen again.

In other words, just because someone gave you a little more attention than you’re used to, doesn’t mean they like you more than any other friend.

What the heck!? Where did September go? Wow, another year is going by. Another birthday. Life’s quite different from October 2006, I think. Well, minus the disorganization and the fact that I’m still not grown up yet.

For one, I had just started going to the dentist at that point. It was all about getting the teeth back into shape. Now, I’m Miss Brace Face. I went in to get the brackets and separators/spacers today. My molars are a little sore due to the spacers, and I definitely can’t bite down on anything too solid/tough. A little bummed out about that, considering how much I love to eat.

I was also considering an MBA at the time. Attended a few MBA fairs, but I never got to actually applying. Now that I’m in the middle of the whole ortho thing, it just doesn’t seem the right time. I also wanted to have passed the CPA exam by the time I started, but I’m no step closer. Didn’t pass the exam I just took. What a big surprise. And now that work is piling up left and right, I’m not sure when I will have time to study. I’ve had to mark “Not Attending” on several invitations this month… Must maintain control!