[Super Duper Fantastic] ISFP/INFP. 4w5. World Explorer. Super Hero. Rose-colored Glasses.

Not having a job is getting tiresome already. I know that I can pick up and go somewhere, but at the same time, there are random things here to take care of. It’s frustrating to be overqualified for some positions and not qualified enough for others. It also does not seem to be a good time to seek a completely new line of work because there are those who are experienced in those fields already who are looking to fill those positions. Why would a company want someone inexperienced over someone dedicating their college studies to that field?

On a side note, I’m working again on my 101 in 1001. I showed up at Bar Method [#17 on the list] earlier this week for a workout. Yikes! My body was soo sore afterwards. I only went once this week, but the plan is to finish up the courses now that I can. My body will be mad at me at the beginning, but I’m sure very appreciative at the end.

In an attempt to sew something [#34 on the list], I signed myself up for a sewing class. It’s going to be tomorrow afternoon! I’ll learn the basics of the sewing machine, so that’ll get me started. I’m a bit inspired to create something cute, but we’ll see if I can even get the machine going first. What I have in mind would require that I learn to work with various types of fabrics, so we’ll see how this goes!

It’s been so beautiful lately.

From Rob Brezny:
“To see what is in front of one’s nose needs a constant struggle,” said George Orwell. While that’s true for many of us most of the time, I’m betting you’ll be an exception to the rule in the coming week. You will find it easier than usual to escape from the trance of everyday life. As a result, perfectly obvious secrets that have been invisible to you will tap you gently on the forehead and say “Look at me!” After the initial shock, there’ll be a release of tension you didn’t even realize you were carrying around, followed by a warm, fuzzy explosion of raw hope.

It seems to me that this is exactly what I need. I’ve told RV in the past week how much I want to go on a vacation, to just throw everything aside and rest my mind. Work is wiping me out. I’m not one to want to give up, but there are frustrating times when I wonder what it’s all for. What’s it worth to me? I even have these conversations with my equally frustrated manager. It’s no wonder there is such high turnover in this industry! Spending free time scanning job listings may very soon be part of my routine. You know, just to see what ELSE is out there.

Anyone in need of a senior accountant, accounting manager, or an assistant controller? Those are just job titles. I’m a Number Muncher! Remember that game? Hah!

Anyway, I hope that the next week brings me something new. Not new for the sake of being new, but something that’s always been here right under my nose that I’ve failed to see. I want to experience an awe similar to how I feel when I spend weekends wandering the city that I grew up in still discovering the new.

It frustrates me to no end that I feel unable to control or navigate my career at the moment. The CPA exam is my roadblock. I also do not make the time to network amongst my peers. I have no network. I have no mentors. What am I doing? I’m up for a promotion next year if I pass the exam, but considering that there are 25 at my level [most with their licenses], chances are it won’t happen for me.

I met with my advisor at work on Friday, and these issues were brought up. I got really emotional about it. I cried. Yeah, broke down in his office. Well, not really broke down, just watery eyes, but it’s not such a professional thing to do. It’s supposed to be confidential, right? Or will I be that girl? It made me realize that I hadn’t thought about all that in awhile. Threw it all in the back burner because of long hours and other priorities, like oral surgery, on my mind.

Despite having the exam at the back of my mind at all times, I’d still managed to avoid the actual studying and taking the exam parts.

So I’m back at it.

Don’t stop me.

Happy December!

It’s that time of the year when you just want to hibernate and stay warm. Oh, and attend holiday parties!

It’s the calm before the storm when it comes to the working world for me. January through March should be busy, busy, busy. I’m already at my next client, while still working on my other ones. Hah!

What’s new, right?

Keeping these entries short and simple since I’ve got a little bit of catching up to do.

It really upsets me when I spend all day waiting to hear back from someone, so that I can do work, and they don’t even send me what I need. And then in turn, it makes me unreliable to the person I am reporting to.

Ugh! :/

Apparently another round of layoffs JUST took place. I’m so out of the loop and am only hearing about it now. Wow. Of course, it is not as large as the last one, but it always baffled me how they go to work one day and then they’re out the next.

The economy is horrible right now, and it will only get worse… at least for the first quarter of the new year. Fingers are crossed that it doesn’t last TOO long. Otherwise, it will make one of my 101 things to do in the next few years rather difficult. People will not pay you more if there is someone else out there equally qualified who will do it for less.

Today, I had to go to my manager’s house to pick up a binder. Long hours are expected for tomorrow because it’s all coming to an end. I’m going to be so happy when it’s over and out of my mind.

I’m falling behind in terms of duty as a friend. I’m not physically there for some. I feel pretty shitty about that. It’s like if I balance a few things, other things are neglected. It’s like I catch up in one area and then fall terribly behind in another.

I just can’t seem to get it right at the moment.

A year ago, I was dealing with an emotionally draining individual whom I haven’t heard from since we last saw each other. For a brief moment [blink of an eye], I wondered what was wrong with me, and why someone would say one thing one minute and then say something else the next. I was hurt.

I got over it. Good riddance, I say.

Even though very busy and overwhelmed with work, I put myself into that spot, so there’s nothing but myself to blame. In all other aspects, I’m happy.

Don’t forget to vote tomorrow if you haven’t already done so…

I foresee some ridiculously busy weeks ahead. Basically, I need to sort myself out and make sure that I’m not fully consumed by it. Will try to update as regularly as I possibly can since I barely caught up at the beginning of this month.

See you on the other side.

I hate that when I am swamped or stressed, I tend to lose interest in what it is I’m working on. I tend to become unreliable… Right now, I feel like I’m letting a few of my managers down because I am not completely focused on what I need to get done for them.

I hate being all talk. That’s going to change. I will catch up! *insert determined face here*